Something BIG, important, scary, and all-consuming has been on my mind lately.

It feels important to tell you about it.

My guess is you might have something similar brewing inside of you. After all, we're never as weird, strange, and alone as our minds seem to convince us...

This thing, at first, was easier to just ignore.

I dove a little deeper into my work. Spent more time with friends. Went to the beach and started growing little herb seeds.

I kept stuffing it down. Numbing. Avoiding.

It felt so much easier to watch another episode, light a joint, and eat a few more chocolate chips than to admit how I was really feeling.

Except that feeling kept building. Like a snaking, twisting, writhing, dark cloud deep within. Threatening to bubble over and out of control at any moment. 

I knew I couldn't keep running.

But it felt safer to hide from the truth.

Because once I sat with this feeling that had been building - what then?

I was afraid of what it would mean for me.
What I'd need to do or change.
Who I'd need to become to be able to sit with the truth that my soul was SCREAMING at me. 

Maybe you're in a similar place right now?

Perhaps you've felt the turmoil of a truth building inside of you. Begging you to listen. To really LISTEN. And you've been afraid to face it. Choosing the safety of the known over the uncertainty of what that new truth will bring.

That feeling I'd been running from? Finding every means possible to shove it down?

>>> The truth I'm sitting with right now today is that this life, the way I've been living it lately, is no longer serving me. I've grown tired of it. I'm unsatisfied.
I want more. <<<

My soul, the core of who I am, want's MORE.

• MORE unconditional love and radical authenticity in my relationships. I am no longer tolerating surface-level, friendly but fake, holding back our true selves for fear of being judged interactions.
• MORE work that thrills me. Work that I get lost in for hours on end, that lights me up and leaves me feeling so sweetly exhausted and content at the end of the day.
• MORE pleasure and deliciousness from the foods I eat, beauty in the clothes I adorn my body with, more strength and power from how I move and push.
• MORE moments of pure, joy. Creating and finding joy, silliness, dance, and laughter sprinkled throughout my day.

The core of who I am craves it ALL. That ancient hunger that courses through my veins is a part of me. 

The funny thing is once I said it out loud. Once I stopped running and admitted my truth, it turned out to not be so scary. 

I didn't feel overwhelmed, crippled, or stuck.

I feel FREE. 

I'm not satisfied. And now that I've finally acknowledged it, it's time to DO something about it.

What's that old quote - if you want something you've never had, it's time to do something you've never done?

I'm ready. Ready to open myself deeper, to push further outside of my comfort zone, to expose all of who I am, to ask for what I really desire, and to receive and let it ALL in.

 

It's the path of the Rebel Alchemist - shedding the norms, expectations and shoulds that no longer serve and turning our darkest shadows into the light that changes the world. 

 

My guess is that if you've read this far, you're ready too.

You're ready to stop running, numbing, playing safe. You're ready to step into your full power. To FEEL it all. To let your inner wisdom course through you and to act accordingly.

 

What truth have you been subtly or full out stuffing down?
What have you been tolerating?
What message has your soul been screaming at you that you've been too afraid to fully listen?

 

It's time, love. 

You deserve it. You are worthy of a life played full out. You are ready (even if it doesn't remotely feel like it ;)).

Shoot me back an email with what truth you can NO longer ignore and what that FIRST next step looks like.

I can't wait to cheer you on and watch you reclaim your power.

XO,
Julia